1 January 2012

New Year, New Beginning

I have put off writing this post for ages.  So, let's just jump in, shall we?

I AM FAT

There, I said it.

Over the last two years, I have gained 22 pounds and I am now firmly in the overweight category.  I am very unhappy that I have allowed myself to get to this point.  Of course, I have many excuses for my predicament, but none of them really hold any water.  What it comes down to is a lack of caring and effort on my part.  It's easier to grab a quick meal of garbage food and then sit on my ever-expanding arse.  Much easier than say, eating well, logging my calories and exercising.  

I don't feel good - inside or out.  My knees (one of which has always given me trouble since I dislocated it years ago) are stiff and creaky, my left hip is sore and (ready for TMI?) my monthly cramps are becoming very painful.  All of these maladies are non-existent when I'm at a proper weight.  

On a more vain note, most of my clothing no longer fits - all the beautiful garments that have I sewed over the years sit idle in my closet.  And my desire to sew new outfits has dwindled to almost nothing.  Also, when I look in the mirror, I no longer see the vibrant woman that exists in my mind's eye.  I see an overweight, tired, middle aged woman that has given up.  It ain't pretty.

So, it's time for a change.  

Please don't tell me that I need to love myself more.  Trust me, I love myself - I think I'm pretty darned awesome.  And one of the reasons, I like myself so much is that I have put effort into it.  I have an excellent education that took long hours of sacrifice and study.  I'm great at my job, which takes hard work.  I am a good family member and friend, all of which takes effort.  I am an excellent seamstress and it took years of honing my craft to get to this point.  I love to learn new things and I will leave no stone unturned to develop a new skill.  Do you see the pattern?  All the things I like about my inner self are the result of work, time and effort. 

Also, please leave the "you need to embrace your body as it is" mentality out of this.  I realize that there is a real movement these days to encourage women to love themselves, no matter what size they may be.  And, although the root of the message is empowering, I think it has gone too far.  In fact, the mere suggestion that someone would want to lose weight is often regarded with disdain.  Some people I know even go so far as to inappropriately exclaim that a thin woman "really needs to eat a sandwich."  For some, it has become a fat pack mentality - it's okay for me to be fat, as long as other people are fat too.  Believe me, I have fallen prey to this as well.  Over the past year I have often put off getting back in shape because I would reason that I'm thinner than most people, so I must be doing okay.  What a cop out on my part.
 
Please understand that I have no problems with folks choosing to be fat, nor do I have issues with them loving the body that they have.  My aggravation occurs because of the intimation by some that a desire to lose weight (through healthy eating and exercise) is letting down all of woman kind.  Recently, when discussing my need to lose weight, I was actually told that I shouldn't mention my goal to my students or I could "turn" some of them anorexic.  Um, yeah.

I will not let this daunt me though.  I continuously work hard on my inner self (it's always a work in progress), so it's time start working on my outer self again.  I have a goal, I have a plan and I have the means.  So, it's time to start the hard work.

I wasn't sure whether or not to share this on my blog.  It is deeply personal and I may be opening up myself to comments that will annoy, sadden or anger me.  But, I am more likely to stick to my plan if I put it out into the universe.

And just to keep myself honest, here I am today, heading down to walk on the treadmill in my basement.  I cannot believe I am actually going to share this picture with the world.  But, I am.  Please be gentle.

I am wearing no make up and I haven't fixed my bed-flattened hair. I have not sucked in my stomach or turned to a flattering angle.  I am not wearing clothing designed to camouflage my "trouble spots" and I haven't cropped out the bits I don't like.  This is me, as I am, right now.  A friend told me I was brave to post this photo for the world to see.  (I'm thinking that there is a thin line between bravery and insanity.)  But, I figure if I have a record of where I started, I can stay motivated and encouraged as I watch my progress unfold pictorially over the next few months. 

It's a brand new year, with brand new possibilities.  I refuse to let 2012 go by without at least trying to create a brand new physical version of me. If anyone would like to join me on my journey, I welcome the camaraderie and support.

So, here's to a new year, a new beginning .... and less ass fat.

137 comments:

RebeccaHoward said...

Hi Shannon. I know exactly the headspace you are in because that was me a year ago. I am also a teacher and find it is quite a sedentary job what with all the marking, lesson prep etc and since I started teaching 4 years ago have whacked on weight. However, like you I decided not to accept my new shape (tempting though that was) and decided I wanted to get to a size that would make me feel good. Not skinny, just an 'acceptable to me' size. I have lost 11 kg over the last 12 months. I feel much happier with myself even though there are still lumps and bumps (155cm and 61kg). You need to do what you feel is right for you. Just don't try to do it too quickly and don't give up when the scales move the wrong way. I went to Jenny Craig which worked really well for me and was convenient. I also started walking to work (40 minutes each way) at least one day per week. You don't have to justify yourself to anyone. Blogging about it is a great idea. Good luck and lots of us out here in blog land will be watching and cheering you on.

gwensews said...

I am so glad to see you back, in whatever condition your body is. I can tell you that losing weight becomes more difficult the older you get, so do it while you still have some hormones to help out with it. Best wishes for a happier you in the New Year!

marysews said...

I looked at your picture and I think I am you long-lost twin. I love my body, but I don't currently like it. I hope I can be brave enough to post something similar. Feel free to "egg me on" so to speak.

Carolyn (cmarie12) said...

Okay, I understand and if this is important to you I totally support you because everyone should do what is right for them.

And of course, my most important question is, will you start to sew again?! Cause I miss your wonderful creations!

Anna said...

Hi Shannon, I have a lot more than 22 lbs to loose, probably 3 times that just to start with! I have put it off and been lazy and just not bothered but I am determined to actually do something about it this year (I turn 40 in November and don't want to STILL be fat, I've been this way for far too long). I wish you luck with your journey and I offer any support that I can, I am sure I will be motivated by what you post.

Happy New Year!

Sue said...

My New Year's resolution is to lurk less, comment more. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings. Bottom line, we each need to lead our own lives and feel good about ourselves. It sounds like you are on the right path for you. Please start sharing your sewing and wonderful sewing room with all of us again. You have been missed!

Sue

T. Sedai said...

I say go you! I think it is very admirable when a person can admit that they are unhappy with themselves and actually work to make changes to their routine. Realizing one is in a rut can be hard, but I think getting out of it is even harder. I am no stranger to the weight problems (gained a lot of weight due to thyroid problems, but it doesn't mean I didn't have to work it off after dealing with diagnosis and treatment), so I appreciate what you are trying to accomplish. Best of luck in reaching your goals!

Janine said...

I too have gained about 10 pounds and it makes me feel yucky and my clothes are tight. As a medical practitioner I also know it is not healthy - the facts are clear obese and overweight people are more at risk of heart disease and cancer as well as arthritis , diabetes , poorer obstetric outcomes and the list goes on.So Good Luck and hopefully we can see some of your amazing sewing along the way too.

Anonymous said...

Hi Shannon,
Good for you for making this decision!

I need to do the same thing. For me, it has very little to do with vanity (although who doesn't want to look their best?), and more to do with quality of life. I no longer want to have sore knees, or feel out of breath walking up a smallish incline. I feel like I'm walking through quicksand.

It's time to dig out the free weights from their slumber downstairs, and check out the new gym at the newly built community centre when it opens in a couple of weeks!

btw - you're sending a POSITIVE message to your students that taking care of your HEALTH is one of the most important things you can do for yourself!

Take care,
Pearl in Vancouver

wintunancy said...

Welcome back! I've missed your posts and was glad to see this one even if it is so full of angst. I appreciate the honesty as I am struggling with the same thing. It is the reason I hate to go in my sewing room. I have all that pretty fabric that I hate to 'waste' on fat clothes. I will look forward to your transformation back to healthy and try to be inspired to do the same.

Kris C. said...

I think you're brave to put this out there, and I applaud it! Over the past week, both of my young children have patted my belly and told me that it looked like we were going to have another baby. Um, no, we're not. Time for a change for me, too! I've signed up for SparkPeople, I've signed up for a 10 week Zumba class (starts next week), and I'm trying to walk my dog more. I'm with you in needing to turn this around.

Sheila said...

Happy New Year and thanks for sharing. I too plan to start anew and trim down effectively tomorrow. Like you, I experience discomfort as I age & most notably when I gain weight, but noticed as long as I faithfully workout & watch what I eat, the discomfort is almost nonexistent.

With a brand new year & possibilities I am looking forward to returning to the physical version that keeps the discomfort at bay and keeps me content.

and will be cheering you on..

alethia said...

Happy New Year, what a great way to start the new year by being honest with yourself and by admitting that you are unhappy with your body at this moment. First you are on the right tract, exercise is a must for everyone. I relate to this post because I had the same meltdown in 2006 and probable six months ago. After thanksgiving I decide to take matters into my home hands by reducing portion sizes and decreasing my carbohydrate intake to 10-20% per day. I admire and respect your honesty and corage. Thank you for your honesty and just know that you are not alone in this battle I am joining you on this one. Happy New Year and thank you for posting.

Cindy said...

Best of luck. Your post sums up how I feel about my body. You are right that b/c everyone is fat it is now ok. ok to not exercise ok not to eat healthy.I know if I don't make changes I will be in a bad place in 10 years. I hope you have a very healthy new year.

Anonymous said...

I personally think you look fine in the photo :-) but if you want to tone up and get fitter I have found 'the 30 day shred' amazing. I was a confirmed non exerciser but this DVD is something I can actually do and now 5 months on I enjoy it. It make you sweat but is achievable. I'm 41 and now have some definition back in my muscles but the best thing is I feel strong! Go for it, whatever you choose to do, mine is only 20 mins 2-3 times per week but even that has made a huge difference

angie.a said...

Well, I think you're adorable (you already know that) and I don't think you're "fat". :D But if you feel poorly at this weight and you want to do something about it, then I'm all kinds of behind you cheering you on!

I also don't think there's anything wrong with sharing healthy habits with your students. My students see me eating snap peas with my whole grain sandwiches and drinking more water (weird that I am still fat, ha) and I don't think I've turned a single one anorexic. They have asked me to bring extra snap peas for them though. ;)

My son challenged me to a per-mile bike race (indoor bike). We're logging our miles on the fridge. Of course I want to beat his 17 y/o a$$, but less a$$ fat would be nice too.

Linda T said...

I have full confidence you will achieve your goals. Go for it!

Rose said...

I'm happy to hear from you! I think that you are "pretty darned awesome". (Yes, the body could use some work.) You have my camaraderie and support. Weight is not my problem (maybe a few pounds from the holidays), but I need to get back to those toning excercises. Happy NEW Year!

ejvc said...

Brave post, Sharon. I've missed your sewing and i wish you the best in the New Year.

annie said...

You go girl. Every paragraph echoes a premise I hold dear. Some things we don't have in common. But at almost 72, I still walk an hour every day, I still weigh 133 at 5'8" and it ain't been easy. I am particularly captivated by the thoughts on loving yourself. I'm not so good at that but I will remember your words as an inspiration and my goal for 2012. Thank you so much.

BJ in TX said...

You are certainly motivated - which is what it takes to make changes, whether it's personal, financial, or body-wise. Kudos to you. It sounds like you already have a healthy lifestyle way of eating planned - but if you don't, check out Mark Sisson's website. He promotes a Paleo lifestyle, and let me tell you from experience: it works! I have some health issues and they are kept in check solely by that WOE. Not affiliated, of course. Wishing you much success...

Gorgeous Things said...

Well good on you for grabbing the bull by the horns. Here's to 2012, to new beginnings, and to the start of new adventures!

Naptime Seamstress said...

I think you are fabulously brave and courageously honest.

And, in the spirit of camaraderie, I'll promise to up my physical activity somehow - a walk with my daughters? the new exercise video I haven't even opened yet? stairs instead of elevator?? refuse dessert?

Best Wishes to you!!

NancyDaQ said...

I'm with you, Shannon! I want to trim off 10 pounds this year. It's just a healthier size for me. So let's support each other, shall we?

Andrea said...

Rock on Shanon! I have been reading your blog for about two years now. It is one of my favorites. You strike me as a confident, intelligent, and creative woman. The fun bit of snark also makes reading for your blog fun.

I have no doubt in my mind that you will accomplish your goal, and I'm glad that you're sharing it with us. I have quite a bit of weight to lose myself, though I am certainly not brave enough to post a pic to my blog. Kudos to you. I'm glad you're blogging again and look forward to watching your progress. Perhaps it will be more motivation for me to lose my ass fat too. :)

Lisa said...

You do not look 22 lbs overweight to me ..seriously you look like a normal woman ( I am being 100 % sincere). Here's to a better and healthier 2012. Looking forward to seeing you sew again.

Pam from South Australia said...

Happy new year Shannon. I've missed your posts during 2011. Haven't seen a good nail varnish review in ages! Body shape? What a can of worms. My thoughts.....we have to be happy with ourselves. We should strive to be as healthy as we can be. We need to enjoy life and take the time to do the things that make us happy. If there is something going on in our lives that makes us unhappy.....and we have the power....then change it! So it makes no difference whether I (or anyone else) thinks you are fat, if that is how you see yourself and it makes you unhappy.....you stop eating all the junk food and get on that treadmill and become the person you want to be. I look forward to following your journey.
Good luck!

Anonymous said...

That's a wonderful post! I feel like I'm in the same boat...career and body wise. This really motives me!! Good luck to you and to anyone who wants to improve their body or any other area of their life.

Melissa

Carrotsandsmarties said...

You know - It's funny - I had literally just deleted your blog from my links, (I am sitting here doing the big new-years purge) when I discovered that you have posted again. You are brave. You will surely be as successful as you want to be with this project of yours. You are not the only one who is in this situation; We will be with you! At least, I hope...

Millie said...

What a brave post! I have finally come to that realisation myself too. Infact, I am now on the 4th day of the Dukan diet (yes, I was so determined I started before new year!). That one appealed to me because of the rapid weight loss, minimal exercise and an "eat as much as you want" of the designated foods mentality. So far so good. Have a look into it.

mamafitz said...

i wish you well on your journey, shannon. i've been there too (and will be joining you in the get stronger category).

khristie B said...

I say hooray for wanting to look the best you can, there is nothing wrong with that. I think more people should try harder at looking fabulous. Too many people just give up.
Not only will your body thank you physically but your soul will dance in all your wonderful frocks.
Best of luck.

Teddylyn said...

You go girl! Be the person you want to be!

Lynda in LV
(PS I've been on the same journey--kind of takes a lifetime to keep at it!)

Anonymous said...

It is so good to have you back. I know you can have the body (and soul) you want. Every journey starts with the first step. Keep us posted.
Bernice

Lisette M said...

You are very brave and doing the right thing! I 'm rooting for you!

This past year I discovered that I have 3 herniated disks that gave me much leg pain. I have found out that through exercise I can keep the pain at bay without medication. I am also hoping that exercising for my pain will help me lose those extra pounds that I gained when I couldn't exercise properly because of the pain. I want to be able to wear all the clothes that I have made!

Sherril said...

Shannon, I feel your pain. It's not about not loving ourselves, is is about letting other things get in the way of what's important. As an overweight middle age woman myself, I applaud you for taking the moment to realign your priorities. Things will start changing quicker than you know it. Be ready to have a brand new wardrobe, one already in your closet!

Lisa Laree said...

Shannon, I have a very similar post bouncing around in my head (except for the photo, which I am not brave enough to take, let alone post). I could've written this almost word-for-word. My version will probably be on my blog sometime in the next week. (There. I said it. Now I have to post it.)

So, I applaud! I cheer! I encourage! And I'll hopefully tag along. ;-)

Joline said...

I am glad to see you posting again, and I appreciate your candor about the weight struggle. Thank you. (And, are you planning to sew? Your work has inspired me for years.)

Terry said...

Shannon, I wondered how you were doing. Went to your blog yesterday in fact. Like you,one of the things that bothered me most when I gained some weight was that my clothes didn't fi. So,for me,lots of outside walking and increase in vegetables is helping.

I had a mastectomy and I swear that everything that was removed reappeared at my waist! Good luck.

Vicki said...

Happy new year Shannon! Ok....I don't think you love yourself enough (sorry, please don't delete). I am the same. You say how much you are doing for others but not yourself. And I agreeyou do need to lose weight. I understand completely. I am small like you and have gained some kilos and my clothes do not fit! And I know how that makes you feel. That is what happens when you are small and gain even just a few kilos. But the good news is you don't have much to lose. You (and me) can do it in a few small months. It won't take you forever. Good luck!!

Rose said...

Shannon,

I applaud you!

Please do love yourself enough so that you feel confident doing what *you* want and *need* to do to feel better about yourself. Please love yourself enough not to blindly follow what "society" considers 'socially acceptable." Please love yourself to allow you to be a priority in your life-- you cannot be there for others if you are not there for yourself ( oh, I learned this lesson).

Do keep your eyes open--I think that as your body changes you will measure success using different metrics. I wish you success during your journey.

Rose in SV

Debbie Cook said...

Good for you, Shannon! I know it took a lot of courage and determination to post these thoughts and the pic to the world, and I wish you the best of luck! I'm right there with you in thought and in deed. You go girl!!

Clio said...

I hear you. A few years ago, I was in a very similar place. And I loved myself enough to commit long-term to good eating habits and an active lifestyle. Nothing radical - no crazy diet or insane workout regime. Just walking a little more and eating a little less - watching what I ate, and committing to that over the long haul despite ups and downs. I soon was feeling so good and wanting more challenging activity. So I began running, an activity that I love and that gives me confidence and a sense of accomplishment.

I am so much happier for making the decision to care for my body, the way I care about my inner self. Giving myself the gift of good health had a tremendous positive impact on my self esteem.

There are many roads to self love, but like you, I think that for me it goes hand in hand with caring for myself both inside and out. I support you and wish you success in 2012!

Corrine said...

Dear Shannon, I am with you all the way! I will love following your progress. While I vow not to set up unreasonable goals, I am trying to be more aware of what I eat. Good luck to you in 2012. And yes, you are brave!

Pammie said...

Good luck! I have gained 25 lbs too. So my goal is to get down to at least 135 - we've been biking (alot!), and we're starting P90X2 tomorrow.

I know you can do it. Good luck and we'll join you!

Sherry from Alabama said...

I wish you the best on your weight loss endeavor. I agree with your friend, you are a brave soul to reveal yourself to the world just as you are. I applaud you. But then, you're not big either. Just remember to be kind to yourself while losing.

I've enjoyed my first visit to your beautiful blog.

Sherry @ A Happy Valentine

MarcyF said...

Shannon--

Thank you for your bravery and honesty in putting yourself out there this way. I too am embarking on making some changes in my life this year, including a similar (but notably "larger") weight loss journey. I look forward to following your progress and will offer all the encouragement I can for you. I am so pleased to see you back blogging again. I have really missed your sharing of your beautiful and skillful sewing. Your blog has always been in the top few of my favorite and most inspirational blogs, and has helped me decide I want to create a blog of my own this year. Welcome back!

Sharon said...

Shannon! U understand completely. Thank you for sharing this. I've been contemplating writing a similar post - I have allowed myself to gain over the past two years. Enough that most of my clothing no longer fits. I've been disappointed in myself, especially since I do exercise weekly which means I can no longer pretend to myself that I'm eating healthy all the time. I'm also beginning new in 2012 to get back to where I was - feeling healthy at a good healthy weight. I'll be joining you. I know you can do it! Thanks for opening up so candidly.

Anonymous said...

Go for it! Sounds like you have really thought this out and know yourself and what you need. I know the feeling of "nothing fits" and your clothes are beautiful, so best of luck.
Joyce

Carol said...

I've been in exactly the same place as you are now. I found I was my own worst enemy. The worse I felt, the less I did and it was near impossible to make a start on fixing anything. You need to find what works for you and you alone, which is guaranteed to be different to what works for me or anyone else. It took me a long time to find a form of exercise I really liked (I do Les Mills Pump classes three times a week) and until I found it, I had trouble staying motivated. I would love to join you on this journey and I bet it's easier than we think!

a little sewing said...

You can count me among those who enjoy a fitness-oriented lifestyle. I am hooked on the endorphins and the sensuous feeling of a well-worked body. It really affects my emotions, too. I am so much more content, satisfied and optimistic when I get plenty of exercise. When I slack off, I am more prone to depression, anxiety and general malaise. It has become such a vital part of my life that I only miss exercise when I am really sick or injured.

For all the exercising I do, it seems I should be slimmer, but I guess I'd have to cut back on desserts. I don't see myself cutting back on the food I enjoy, so I just accept the midriff I have. Actually, I look a lot like you, but I am older, so I guess it is different as you go through different stages of life.

I applaud your commitment to doing what you want to do, for yourself.

Anonymous said...

Good Luck and God Bless you for your post, this could be my story too, although I think I may be a bit older so I've been putting it off longer. I feel like I've been carrying a huge sack of something around my waist and am getting really tired of it. So here's to the new year and putting health and happiness (and yes a smaller jean size) first, Good Luck to you, I wish you the best!

Karen said...

Good for you! Been there, done that, and feel better for it. All best, Karen

The Hojnackes said...

It is obvious that you love yourself, otherwise you wouldn't be posting about this. I understand where you are coming from on the "just love yourself as you are" issue. People do need to love themselves, but they don't need to risk their health. Being overweight (and I say this as I am currently overweight by a considerable amount) is a health risk. When the proper weight, I could move around easily, didn't have pain in all my joints, and was more comfortable in social situations. Losing weight isn't just about being skinny. It should be about being healthy, having energy.
You can totally do it! (and I, for one, will support you in it)

patti said...

Hooray for you, Shannon! A lot of us make the New Year's resolution to lose weight (I think it's the Number One resolution)--but I think your inner fortitude will pay off big-time.

andrea said...

Brava!

I hope your journey is speedy and filled with joy.

Virginia said...

Others may differ, but I am in agreement with your thinking on this. I also think that if concern for how we look is one of the strongest motivators for taking care of our health, then bring on the vanity!

Do you follow Debbie Cook's blog and have you seen her amazing recent slimming success? She's been doing a version of the Paleo/Primal diet, which I also have been following. I've lost nine pounds (125 to 116) with no exercise to speak of, and all kinds of other things have improved dramatically (eczema, gout, joint pain, headaches, cramps). Sorry to evangelize, but I want everyone to know about this!

Jane M said...

You're back, hooray! Brave and witty and courageous post, Shannon. You go girl. I believe that we each know in our inner core what is really good for us...in friends, activities and yes, weight. I think that's the part about loving yourself that I would use....it means listening to yourself and ignoring the external messages that tell us otherwise. I'm not necessarily looking to lose more weight (although there are probably a few holiday pounds on the scale that have to go) but I'm with you entirely about healthy food choices and good exercise. Here's to a great new year!

SEWN said...

Oh, I feel your pain. I think my picture would look just the same as yours. After losing some weight over the summer, I gained it right back in the last two months.

I wish you a happy new year with enough willpower and energy to accomplish all that you want to do.

KID, MD said...

I think you are amazing for posting this, and I will be here cheering you on! I've missed your posts, so I'm glad to see you back.

Anonymous said...

Shannon-
Here, here! I was in the same boat as you this time last year and have lost 29 pounds thru joining Weight Watchers (all online). I finally faced the music and did it half a pound at a time. I want to encourage you on your journey - it's not easy but you can do it! My knees thank me, my hip thanks me, and my horse whom I love to ride thanks me, lol. I'm still not where I want to be - my goal is to be the weight that I say I am on my driver's license :) but I'm close. You CAN do it! Good luck!!

-Dinah

Nancy K said...

Happy New Year and good luck on losing weight. Glad you're back and I can't wait to see what wonderful creations come out of your machine.

Nancy W. said...

Shannon - good for you! I was in your predicament several months back. The problem with being just that much overweight is that no one seems to understand. Everyone says "You don't need to lose weight" or "just go to the gym more often. You're not obese" Well, be those things as it may, it can be seriously damaging to your emotional health. I couldn't even get a doctor to take me seriously. I was going to the gym 3x a week, had done weight watchers for months, and still nothing. Finally, a friend of mine had lost weight and she started at even less than I did. She went to a nurse practitioner who worked with weight issues. I finally buckled up and made an appt. to do the same. I've lost about 20 pounds, but have gone from a size 12 to a size 6. I feel so much better now. I am going to the gym, but I hope to be more consistent this year. People kept telling me I didn't need to lose weight, but now that I have, they are telling me I look great. The fact that you posted your picture as you have says that you are READY to change. I had to get to that point too. No matter what diet or plan you go on (I did no carb then low carb) it's all about where your head is at and your motivation. Go for it!
Nancy

Susan said...

Good for you. I have been working hard to get back to my pre-pregnancy weight. My daughter is already one now and I had planned to take only one year. Even though I have lost 40-something pounds I have 20-something to go.

Here's to loving ourselves enough to want to change for OURSELVES.

June said...

I'm right there with you. I took the plunge in October, and I'll be cheering you on as another body-in-progress. I love your confidence in making the change! Happy new year, best of luck!

PS. Don't forget to tell us, someday, how much you are loving your divine new custom sewing room. :)

Elle said...

Oh, my, I could have written this post. Word for word. Including the part about people telling you to love yourself the way you are.

I'm with you on this journey. I want to lose at least 20 pounds, and want to sew things that I can wear for years and years. Not a quick skirt with an elastic waist because I have nothing else that fits.

I'm writing down what I eat, because I need the accountability, and I'll be heading to the gym tomorrow. The couch to 5K app is on my phone... tell me I can do it!

So, yep here's to a new beginning...
~Ellen

somcak said...

Yay for you! I'm excited you shared with us. I'm more of a lurker on your (and most) blog. I have been on a two-year long weight loss journey. The most important thing to me on this journey has been being honest with myself. And this post was confirmation of that.

Amy said...

You ROCK!

Kristine said...

Kudos to you! For putting yourself out there, for facing your fears, for speaking your mind, for being honest... I am giving you a hearty "You can do it!" and am excited for you!
I started my weightloss journey August 1, and am 20 pounds lighter today. You're a smart lady, so I won't go into a "to do" list here, but just know that I am more than happy to be your Internet cheerleader and teammate. Email me, or Facebook me, if you'd like. Big milestone for me today: completing my first 5k! Good luck!!

Marie said...

Good for you!!! I am joining you.
Needless to say it is always easier for women to nurture the others in their lives rather than themselves. This is the year to nurture myself! I hope you will also.

Amy said...

Good for you! I'm attempting to shift 15kgs myself. I'm using sparkpeople.com to track everything - I like it... :)
Best of luck from Australia!!!!!

gMarie said...

Yea you! For all of it. For posting the picture, for standing up for yourslef - all of it. I started this journey last Monday - working out with the Wii 3 times a week and walking the dogs on the weekends. I'm planning meals and taking left overs, I need to get better at eating breakfast.

I look forward to following your journey. I'm so glad to see you back in this space. g

Jen S said...

Shannon, very brave and inspiring of you to acknowlege a problem and set about changing your life.
I too, have decided with the start of a new year that my lifestyle has to change- i need to be fitter and healthier for me - plus i want to wear some great clothes instead of the loose oversized stuff i've been wearing! I'll be joining you in this challenge!! I've started exercising again - just walking but since yesterday have walked 15 kms and i'm certainly feeling it now!!
Before i forget - love your new house - it looks huge!!! Not to mention your sewing room - i want one!!! Your cutting table is just what i want - but i need for remaining kids to leave home befor i can comandeer a bedroom.
Best wishes

CarlaF-in Atlanta said...

You've made up your mind to do something for yourself. Something that will make you feel better. Go for it!

Dana said...

First things first; Hooray! You're blogging again. You're one of my faves and I've been checking daily (since I'm on Christmas break) waiting to hear from you.

Secondly, I believe everyone has their own personal meter that measures when they feel the best about their body. You know when you feel good and when you don't. I definitely think you're very brave for posting the picture. I have made a silhouette of my body and have a hard time looking at it myself let alone sharing it with anyone publicly.

Good luck with your journey and so happy to hear from you!

quilteddogs said...

Oh wow! Bravo for you and best of luck to you.

thornberry said...

Good on you Shannon. I've just done a round of the 12 Week Body Transformation because I was in a similar position to you, and it's done me the world of good. Now in the healthy weight range again (with still a few more kilos to lose) and feeling so much better in many ways. I took photos of myself in my underwear before which really helped with my motivation and finding a supportive group of friends was also a key for me. You can be proud of posting your before picture and you know what your goals are and where you are headed. I think that is great.

Jodi said...

Shannon, It IS brave :) You aren't alone and I applaud your effort to get back to where you feel best. I'm in the middle of the same process myself, fallen away from the path over the holiday, but back on it tomorrow.

We are more than our bodies, most certainly. I know a number of larger women that are genuinely happy with their bodies. And it is refreshing to be around them without the negative body vibe dominating everything we do together. But I know this isn't something I can be, so know that I'll be right there with you!

jodi

Pammie said...

Hi! I know exactly what you mean! I made a previous comment, (I think), but I'm not sure so I'm rewriting. I'd love to join you in your weight loss and healthy eating plan! I routinely gain 20-25 lbs - and I did these past two years - so I'm in! Went bike riding today and tomorrow start partially P90x2.

ChristineB said...

I could have written the same post! And I've reached the same level of (over)fed-up-ness, too, so I'll be making a big effort to change my habits this year as well. (I've crept up from a RTW size 6 to a 10-going-on-12.) Stay positive and focused - and remember to sew those side seams last, it makes taking things SO much easier as your size changes (and it will, just keep at it!).

Anonymous said...

Go Shannon! I wish you all the best in your efforts to become more fit and its wonderful to have
you posting again. Thanks for the
inspiration!
Cheryl

Nat said...

Oh, hear hear! I too am very overweight, and while I have no issues with my inner self, my health issues are becoming a challenge. Plus - I love some of the clothes I can't fit into anymore. So I will be joining you (and I suspect many more people) in this journey.

Best of luck to you (and me!)

Victoria Callas said...

It's a good start- saying loudly what bothers you. Personally, I don't think you're fat, you look like an ordinary woman. Still, it's your decision and I wish you only the best!

By the way, have you considered joining Spark People? They have tons of information and motivation there, as it's completely free I would like to recommended this site/community for you. It helped me a lot in my battle for weight ;)

SakuraBlossom said...

Good morning. I wish you can reach your goal and be as satisfied as you are with your inner "you" with your "outer you". I also think that, this mentality "love yourself as you are" is a misleading idea: what if you're a pervert you love yourself 'cause you have nothing wrong? you're obese, you gotta love yourself no matter you could die sooner in any moment?...by the way i really liked your thought: thin line between bravery and insanity.

Sariska said...

First of all - happy new year!
You are AWESOME and very brave to be writing this post. Congrats to you for doing so. Opening up your vulnerabilities to the world is a massive step in any growth and/or change. If you put it out to the universe, it is amazing what can come back to you.
Wanting to be healthier and stronger, as well as toned is nothing to be scoffed at. Your body is a machine and needs regular upkeep and care.
Have you heard of Kris Carr? http://crazysexylife.com/
She wrote a myriad of books, the first of which was called Crazy Sexy Cancer. She was diagnosed with a rare form of cancer, and instead of going the medical route, she decided to make some huge changes to her diet, lifestyle, health regime, everything! Hers is an inspiring story, much like your blog post. Kris wrote a book recently called Crazy Sexy Diet. It is chock full of facts and stories concerning the Standard diet and how choosing to eat more greens, veggies, fruits and fresh products can change the way you live. I myself bought this book and I am currently undergoing a self overhaul with many of the suggestions in her diet book, particularly the juicing one. I am constantly amazed at how much more full of energy I am each morning from drinking a glass of freshly juiced veggie drink. Coffee begone!
The is a 21 day challenge on Facebook to turn people on to a more vegan diet.
http://pcrm.org/kickstarthome/
I'm doing it myself with some modification etc. I like the idea of a collective of people having the same goal - could be inspiring, informative and fun!
Good luck whatever you choose! I hope you find a satisfying balance and enough change to get you feeling, and therefore looking, amazing! Your experience could become a great learning project for the kids you teach!

Liz said...

I think you are extremely brave to post this painfully honest piece. I let things slide for much longer than your two years and had 110lbs to deal with once I admitted there was a problem. From reading your blog I get the impression that you are normally a busy active person with plenty of motivation so if I could make a suggestion - if you haven't already done so have a thyroid function check. I'm not one of these "my metabolism is slow its not my fault" people. My GP reckons 7-10lbs of my excess weight is directly attributable to my underactive thyroid but it does make you tired and unwilling to put your back into anything and affects what you can be bothered to prepare and eat for yourself.
I see that you moderate the comments to your blog. I won't be offended if you don't post this comment. Thyroid issues bring out almost as much uninformed opinion as the Fat Acceptance issue. I wish you all the best with your challenge for 2012. I'll watch your blog with interest.

Anonymous said...

Thank you for your honesty and strength. I too have let myself go.
Thank you for sharing, you have helped me.

God Bless You
Marie

Lene said...

Hi there Shannon.
Wonderful to hear from you again - I have been missing your very pointed wit and amazing sewing skills :-)

I must say, I am impressed by your courage, to post this message.

Whether I think you are overweight or not, it's none of my business to comment on the way you percieve yourself. If you want to change something: Go for it! I promise, I will applaud every lost pound and every inch that has disappeared :-)
And please excuse any spelling errors - english is neither my first or second language :-)Knowing that I write to a teacher makes me very self-conscious in that regard :-)

Gwen said...

I can SO relate - so much of my life is so very good - but I have gained so much weight over the past couple of years that I am just miserable with my body. And it takes my pleasure away from sewing for myself (among other things)... And I feel helpless to change. I know what it's going to take - and I just don't feel that I have the energy and the motivation and the determination to make it happen... :(
Good luck to you! It sounds like you have the mind set and all the skills you need to accomplish your goals for 2012. :)
I will try to let your attitude and energy and success inspire me. :)

Mae said...

Thanks for this brave post! I admire your honesty and your attitude. You deserve the body you want.

Nicole said...

I am too in your same boat. Over the last year i have gained 17, 10 of which was in the last 3 months. I am currently in the middle of a 10 day vacation from work, and had planned to sew the entire time, but I don't want to make anything that might hopefully be too large in a month or so. My new years resolution was to join weight watchers and stick with it beyond my goal weight. I used it last year for just a couple of months successfully, and found if I have something to keep me accountable then I'm more likely to stick to my plan. I have lost 2 lbs this week so far (I cut out the holiday junk food and finally started exercising again on top of the Weight watchers.

Also, there is a really good article on the NY times- http://www.nytimes.com/2012/01/01/magazine/tara-parker-pope-fat-trap.html?_r=1&hpw about what it takes to keep the weight off.

Good luck in your endeavors and PS I'm super jealous of your new sewing space!

Sheila said...

I applaud you and your decision. Being overweight is something many people struggle with and what I feel the “beauty comes from within” camp is missing is that fat is not healthy. I do not try to maintain a lower weight to fit into a super model size, I do not do it because a fashion magazine told me to, I do it because I am 38 years old and facing a life with type 2 diabetes in my future. Keeping my weight at a reasonable level will hopefully delay the inevitable. I am 5’ 10” tall, weigh about 170, I could stand to get rid of 10 pounds as per my doctor, and I will, slowly. Few realize what 10 or 20 pounds can do to a person’s body and mind.
No one should be judged for healthy eating and excersise!

Kelly said...

Happy New Year Shannon, you have been missed. Your words resonate with me as I find myself in the same situation. I admire your strength and bravery. I even find I strength for myself in your words. Thank you for sharing.

Anonymous said...

Shannon, I have missed your voice! I hope you start posting some of your awesome projects very soon. I do not judge anyone in their journey to who they want to be, I salute you.

Gina in Texas

Claire S. said...

Oh Shannon, that was me last year and I wasn't anywhere brave (or insane ! LOL) enough to either take or post a picture ! If I hadn't hit the overweight mark, I was definitely at the VERY top end of my 'healthy' range. I also heard all of the "you're tall, you look fine, you don't need to lose weight!" opinions and paid attention to them for far too long.

After about 5 years of thinking about it, but not doing anything about it, I found a couple of Apps for the iPod for tracking weight, logging in food, calories, exercise and signed up on one (myfitnesspal dot com, if you're interested) - what a pain in the butt !!!! But, yes I did it and feel pretty good now.

If you're not feeling good, then you get to decide what to do about it. Doesn't matter what anyone else thinks.

You can do it !

Anonymous said...

Bravo and well stated, Shannon. And welcome back - I've missed your posts. Paula

Beal said...

Nice to see you back on your blog! Best wishes on your goal to lose weight -- I'll be cheering you on. :-) I imagine Hartley would volunteer to go walking outside with you (although if he's like my dogs, it's more sniffing than walking).

sewing spots said...

Good luck to you! You are very brave and very motivated to post about this.

julia said...

Good luck, Shannon! It's your goal - pursue it with gusto and have fun!

Julie Culshaw said...

All the best Shannon, you can do it. I am sure you have been told the metabolism slows down after 40 and it surely does. I have managed to lose 10 pounds over the last year, very slow and difficult to maintain the loss. I will survive famines while others waste away.

I look forward to seeing your new creations, so keep up your resolve.

anglow said...

As a longtime reader, I have been wondering where you are! So glad you are back and I think your post is cool. You have great determination as is evidenced by the goals you have achieved in the past and you didn't even mention building a house ! Now you are inspiring me to get off my tush as well. Thanks!

Anonymous said...

Not sure how I ended up here but...

good for you! You'll get before-after pics. That'll be worth the effort.
Also, there's a big difference between being fit and being skinny, and everything must be done with measure! (not overweight, not boney, not chiseled, not flabby)
I shall follow your example. Good luck!

anglow said...

As a long time reader, I have been wondering what happened to you! I think your post here is cool. You are a very determined person in the light of your accomplishments and you didn't even mention building a house, so I'm sure you will succeed. Hartley will help you as well. At least that's what my young rottie tells me as she pulls me down the street. Hope you keep posting about this!

Vinnie Toscadero said...

Been there too! Good luck. I did the Dr. Berstein diet last year and it worked great for me.

Kay said...

I'm very proud of you to start working towards being healthier. Go for it!!

Can I join you? I have about 15 pounds to lose and there's a treadmill in my basement which hasn't been used much at all.

I have an accurate weighing machine in office, I'll check my weight tomorrow and post here how much I exactly weigh.

To the new year! To a new beginning!

sewstashsew said...

I think that's awesome. I hope to loose 10 lbs or so - I think it's much healthier. Here's to no excuses!!!

Evie said...

I know exactly how you feel. My weight is an ongoing conversation with myself, and I'm truly bored of it.

I've set myself a goal to lose the last 26lbs this year and to get fit whilst doing so.

I totally appreciate that for many people this amount of weight wouldn't be a big deal, but for me it is. And enough is enough.

So, you're not alone in this. We can do it!

Trumbelina said...

Thank you for not making any excuses. I am on board with everything you said. Do you have an exercise plan? Check out beachbody.com. Their programs are very good. I'm not a coach, just an work-out dvd whore. I download them from Vuze for free on my Mac. I'm also a sewist and enjoy your blog. Stay motivated!!

Maria said...

Hello Shannon...as a woman that has been battle-ling being overweight for most of her life - I encourage you to go for it and get fit.

Like you, I received many nice comments like embrace your body - well, I don't like the way my body is at the moment, because it is not who I am inside. So after many years of trying every diet out there and every exercise program of the moment, I have finally found something that works for me! Yay!!!

I have lost inches off my waist and my hips and slowly but surely, I am loosing everything else. I do Pilates and Yoga everyday without fail! and then I have changed my eating habits for the best.

None of my clothes fit me either - so I have put off sewing for myself for over three years - ugh!!! but now, finally, I am beginning to see myself and liking how my body is shaping up.

You can do it Shannon! It takes determination, a great deal of pain, and writing of goals to make them happen. It will happen, but you must want it badly enough!!!

I know you can do it. You are a woman that has made beautiful clothes that have taken such a long time to create, you can do this! I am behind you 100%

Blessings,

Maria

Seraphinalina said...

Good for you. I know I have a "the buck stops here" breaking point weight and it's higher than what BMI's say I should be but it's where I become uncomfortable in my own skin. When I see that on the scale, it's time to reassess what is going on so it doesn't get worse. I think whatever nets you success in your goals is the way to go, if that's publicly doing it on your blog than so be it. Good luck, I look forward to reading about the journey.

Colleen G said...

Glad to have you bakck blogging, SHannon, I have missed your colourful nails and inspirational sewing. Hope you are enjoying your new home. I am right there with you on making improvements in my health and eating. Started with walking regularly in early December and will go back to a better (healthier) menu now that the CHristmas eating is is over. Hewre's to success for both of us.

Liara said...

I agree with you. If you're comfortable with your size, then no one should tell you that you need to make a change. If you are not happy with your size, then people should support you in what ever your goal is!

okie2thfairy said...

March ahead! Good job posting a picture. I too found out through looking at photos that I was sick and tired of being fat. Looking forward to the result of hard work. You don't need to post this, it's more for you.
Jennifer

BeeBee said...

I feel your pain. I'm right there with you. Not fat by a lot of people's standards, but the heaviest I've ever been. And I'm not liking it, either. It must go. NOW! Good Luck.

Linda said...

I really like this post. I wish you much success for 2012 in becoming a "new" you.

I am trying to use Spark People as a resoure to help me improve my eating habits by cataloging what I eat each day. I am amazed at the amount of carbs I eat daily.

I look forward to seeing new posts on your new physical you, your success in acheiving what you set out to do.

Sharon said...

Good on you and so glad to see you posting again, I was getting concerned.

Margaret said...

I wish you success on your journey and it is very nice to have you back.

Anonymous said...

You go girl! I lost 50 lbs two years ago and 17 lbs have managed to find me again, and I am feeling exactly the way you are describing - sluggish, fat and icky! Thanks for posting your thoughts - healthy weight loss really is a journey - best of luck to you. :)

Jodie said...

Good for you. I hope that you quickly see positive changes and start to feel better. Keep it up and good luck!

Uta said...

Welcome back; you've been missed! I still re-read your past posts because I think you've made some of the most beautiful clothes in the sewing blogosphere. I can totally understand that you're sad you can't wear them anymore! Good luck with your weight loss. Are you sewing at the moment at all?

Ann's Fashion Studio said...

So nice to see you are back and I wish you all the very best with your weight loss.

Jeanettec said...

I am SO there with you, Shannon. My "disgust" with myself came when I saw a picture from the Christmas party. How did I let this happen. That was it. So like you, I've turned over a new leaf so I can become the healthy me I need to be. I'll be watching and encouraging you along the way. It's good to have company on this journey.

Anonymous said...

I'm so glad you're back to posting on your blog. I completely understand your desire to lose weight. In September 2010 after my annual check-up (where I was told I had a BMI of 24!), I decided I wanted to lose 20 lbs. (I had steadily gained 24 lbs over 8 yrs.) I've lost 15 lbs. so far and I feel and look better.

Anonymous said...

Oh Shannon, my body looks exactly like yours (but older). Only 20 extra pounds but my feet are killing me. I so understand your desire to be back to a more healthy weight! I think I will lose them along with you.
Thank you for posting this!

Trisha said...

Good for you! It's hard to stick to a new exercise/diet regimen. The only exercise plan that I've ever been to stick to are the Physical Therapy exercises I do for my wrists. I hope blogging about it helps you with your goals.

Angie said...

Shannon,
I am so encouraged by your post. My kids will be graduating from high school this year and I have vowed to lose weight for their graduation. I have been fat ever since my son- 18 years ago(no longer baby fat, my fat is a teenager) LOL. You really don't look as bad as you think but I agree, if you don't look like how you can and want to look- it is bad enough. Good luck on your journey and I am here to join and encourage. Let's go from FAT to PHAT together.

Mardel said...

Shannon, I too applaud you. It took me longer to get to the point you are at now, in that I had gained even more weight as was flirting with crossing the line from overweight to obese. I lost over half that weight, and then I let myself pause, as long as I maintained and did not gain.

I'm ready now to knock the rest of it off, around 20 pounds and I am with you in this. You have to do what is right for you and I know you have the focus and determination to do it. I understand about what other people say. I am constantly told I look great and even "thin" although truthfully I look a lot like you do in the photo above. I will be joining you.

Fran said...

I am so glad you're back and I feel your pain!! I am tired of not having my clothes fit, and since I don't feel I'm healthy at this weight, I put off buying and making new ones which leaves me putting on the same drab things every day. Here's to making ourselves healthier this year and liking what we see in the mirror -- not Twiggy -- just someone we are proud of!

mermaids said...

Shannon, you are so right about the "fat pack" mentality. I have always been thin... naturally. I have never had to diet or exercise to lose weight. However, thin does not always equal healthy. I get criticized when I eat a salad. "Oh yeah... like you need to lose weight! Eat a cheeseburger... you're too thin." (BTW, while on thin side, my doctor has said my weight is fine *for me*) I eat a decent diet and I eat often. No malnutrition, no starving, no purging, etc. I eat.

Because I have a really screwed up knee, I spend hours a week exercising... much of that is with a physical therapist. I get criticized for that. "Oh yeah... like you really need to work out so much." I have actually gained a few pounds & inches from the intense workouts... gained muscle.

I have been not so subtly shunned by over weight coworkers. They don't want to have lunch with me because I "don't understand" what is it like for them. Really? How sad that they think body weight is the only thing that two people can connect on. I am always supportive of people who are dieting. I never criticize their food choices. If I know someone is dieting, I avoid bringing "treats" to share.

I have had people tell me I need to eat more, exercise less, and gain some weight. As hard as it for someone else to drop weight, it is that hard for me to gain weight. Yes, I ate cheeseburgers, fries, and milkshakes all day, I would gain weight... and a few heart attacks. If I eat healthy foods, I don't gain weight.

If you don't feel well at your current weight, do what you need to do to feel healthy. I will never be a curvy, voluptuous woman. I have accepted that about my body. My friend who is very voluptuous will have a thin, athletic build. She just isn't built that way... and she is ok with that.

Be healthy, be strong, but also remember to enjoy yourself along the way.

sewsy said...

Good luck, Shannon. You're braver than I am, I commend you for posting the "before" picture. I am in the same state, needing to exercise regularly, and do heartily join you in your new exercise plan.

Also love the new sewing room and organized closet. ;-)

Happy New Year and good luck with the exercising.

Denise said...

Shannon, I have lost 40 pounds or so over the last 7 years. I feel better. One must make her own choice about weight — you aren't letting down womankind if you choose to lose poundage. Whatever makes you happy — and healthy.

Cultured Purl said...

Shannon, first of all I want to say deeply admire your honesty in trying to face your New Year's goal! I am about the same size/ height as you so I know that every * extra* pound looks worse than someone who is 8 in taller than we are! I have always loved your sense of style and when I returned to sewing I often came over to your blog for ideas ( which you are filled with!) I think you are looking at this in a very good way( b/c I hear this all the time myself too), I often fight 5-7 lbs which is whole nother size to me but it makes ME feel uncomfortable not being where I want to be~ I suffered an early Heart Attack in life( not due to cholesterol or lack of exercize) but a blood clotting disorder so I am really on top of my diet and exercize as well I should be~ I cheat very very little and exercize has become a huge part of life for me! Of course I use a treadmill often but recently found a wonderful game called Konect ( spell?) that has a dancing program on it where you can see yourself on the TV yourself, its SO much fun! I am now using it a full hour a day w/o feeling like I am doing ANY exercize but still walk every 3rd day just to get my miles in,
Have you heard of this game?? YOu will enjoy yourself immensely and really get a great work out( I even have friends over to do it sometimes after work too!) As far as sewing I picked up a great bag making book ( by Kay Whitt) and the new Colette book ( b/c I love her design astethic) and am just making up a few muslins so when I am ready to go I know exactly what I want to do and have it well under my belt and one more thing, I promised I would make a few smaller quilts to have in the guest rooms for added warmth on a pretty quilt holder so I do not feel like I am not sewing as much as I normally do( which is hours per day) I hope this helps you Shannon, you are a* brave* person and I admire your spunk, and that is WHY you will accomplish your goal! DO NOT let anyone sway you from your decision! If I would have listened to others, I would not have stayed in the shape I was in ( physically and eating wise) and have may not survived such an early heart attack in life~ I have had great news!!!!!!! my Dr says I actually grew new arteries around the affected tissues so I can do just about anything I want now! It DOES make a difference and I normally do not respond to blogs but I wanted to know that good choices in eathing AND exercize helped me survive and then weather a tough time, and once I made up my mind to stop feeling sorry for myself ( b/c I was so young) I decided to go for it and am now downhill skiing this year after only one year post HA! Yes I am taking it a bit easier this year but in summer I will be back to gardening on our acreage here and we do a lot of Rving so I plan to stay as busy as possible enjoying the " other" part of my life which is tons of pereniall gardens and canning lots of berry jams for gifts!
I wantto encourage ANYONE who decides to take their health seriously,,,,,,, b/c it really DOES matter! ( and I sure love Konect for an hour of fun per day!) New Years blessings to you and best wishes to you Shannon!!!!! You WILL reach your goals I just know it! Happy sewing, and I look forward to many wonderful ideas from you! ( PS, DH is buidling me a whole new sewing room, got some ideas from you! THANKS!!)

Ellie said...

I know exactly what you mean about losing the desire to sew for a body that isn't yours...this is my year too...thanks for your added inspiration!

uglybeat said...

Inspiring and well-put. I think everyone oughta exercise and try to eat healthy, for the simple fact that you will FEEL BETTER. That, and you'll help keep health care costs down for the rest of us. To me, it's kind of like brushing my teeth. I don't really want to, but I think of what will happen if I don't, and it's not pretty. You go, girl!

Grandma S. said...

http://www.wheatbellyblog.com/2011/10/why-wheat-makes-you-fat/
A Good Read

Anonymous said...

Good on you Shannon, go for it! It might be difficult with your potentially dodgy knees and hip, but the only thing I found that really worked for me to lose a few kilos was to run - even though I've never been a runner. I started on the treadmill and then got bored, so moved outside. Running to the corner, then walking for a while, then running to the light pole, then walking for a while etc.

I would also like to thank you for your blog, I love reading it and seeing how wonderfully creative and talented you are.

I wish you all the best with your weight loss goal! Oh, and one more thing - I encourage you to take your own measurements of your hips, waist and bust now and then periodically as time passes. I used to reposition the tape measure because I was sure I couldn't have lost 2cm etc. It's a great encourager!

Tully, Australia

patsijean said...

I feel 100% of what you feel. A lose of 22 lbs would get me down to about 123 lbs, which would be great on me. At age 67, I probably cannot get down to the 105-110 range of my 30's and 40's, but at 5'2" 123-125 would look great and I would feel much better than I do now. Extra weight does affect hips and knees and breathing and heart. Fat is not "curvy" and even though I have lost some weight, I am fat still at 145 lbs.